to wax or not to wax!!!!

ok soooooo as usual i ended up tonight meeting up with some fun ladies for some good chats and good times and as usual certain things always come up in conversation that manage to take everyone to a place that..well...is so out of control its funny as hell......

i will try and relive the moment to the best of my abilities without using names well bcz it just
wouldn't be nice if i did!!!

sooo we get to talking well what women talk about,...shit that men have NO idea about!!! tonight was well...waxing....not your legs, nor arms or chest (for you men...i mean metro sexuals out there!!) im talking the ol whoHA!!!! thats right the flower the vaJJ!!! muffin whatever you would like to name it!!! we talked about how to groom it and how everyone does!!!

this took me to a place of well..memory...DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL SOME OF US GO THROUGH??????

so there is this thing called well a Brazilian...tis where you Fuckin hack the shit all off!! why you ask??...well to be honest im not sure...for myself i could tell you why I do but then that would be to personal...ill tell you why someone else did one time...

WELL its bcz she was recently divorced and was currently scheduled to go on a hot little vaca to a naked hot springs date in Montana with her current bo!! while she had never waxed a day in her 38 years of life she felt the need to call me for what ever reason..(reason 1.. you should know that i have been given the nickname the waxer!!reason 2 she has been my friend for 30 years!!)

any-hew...she proceeds t explain to me that she had completely shave off every once of her precious little 38 year old course black wirely like hair..then proceeded to try and tattoo (with one of those cheap put on your skin with wet washcloth tattoos) her bare ass prickly muffin!!!! well you can only imagine how this turned out!!! NOT GOOD

i get a phone call to "check " the job that had been done...well...im not sure as to why...probably because "i make people feel comfortable being themselves" so iv been told...

Well...i dont want this job ANYMORE!!!! my friend proceeds to come over and "flash" me "her" job...I dam near puked!! have u ever seen a freekin VAJJ that has NOT been waxed and or shaved in 38 years with a cracker jacks box tattoo place don its stubble??? well...lets put it this way...YOU DONT WANT TO!!!!

the first thing that came out of my mouth was.... "girl your ass isnt getting laid at all this weekend sorry!!!!" ya damn well better make sure the light is off!!! something about a 5 oclock shadow with a failed 1/2 erased tattoo of a butterfly (how 70's of her) just says oooo...i want to have sex in a new age kinda way...but im not so sure!! HA!!

the thought that went through his head.."s" when he saw this...he wasn't spitting out hair he was spittin out ink from that DAMN 1/2 ass tat!!

wow..really?? ok im done! i can fun with my friend because i love her...and well if you cant have fun...then there is NO love!! wow...

side note> the shit that we do go through...do you really care??

from the mind of OrbO: human nature..

from the mind of OrbO: human nature..

human nature..

have you ever had something that you have always known deep down that you know you should be doing that might take a little guts to accomplish that might take a little um...rr...believe in yourself? sounds corny i know but have you?

my experience in these last few months with music has been involving this this very subject..
as you know if you follow my blog and or know me...i am a firm believer in fate destiny people you meet come and go you take what you need you leave or you stay forever touched by whatever they bring into your life..

these bullshit of infomercial people who make a shitload of money on the ol tele tellin you that its all in how you perceive things you just need the right tools and you to can be a corny ass dick weed like myself..well hats off...im jealous because i didn't think of that and make millions of the weak minded...but your fuckin wrong!!!

human nature will forever be about survival of the fittest!! this is what i tell my kids...yes you can believe in yourself but its your surroundings...the people that you choose to have in your life..the people you meet the things that randomly happen that put your ass in a good or bad place...yes we all make choices...but you wouldnt have to make that choice if that dumb ass person that came around put you there....that my friends is fate....NOT a tool that was taught to you by a fuckin tool!! Ha!

fate has put me in a great wonderful place on this day...i have have always known that i could sing .....i can play the guitar somewhat decent and am getting better...i knew it was what i should be doing...but until now i had not met the right people..i had not surrounded my self with people who supported me..i have met amazing people who feel the dream...FATE not perception has finally come to the table...it pulls up a chair and comes for some...it never makes it to the table for others...this is karma...good things happen to good people...i am glad i was chosen...because if not for all of the circumstances that have taken place in these last months...i could "believe" all i want....it wouldn't have taken place

im glad that i dont need an infomercial guru and i rely on positive energy that i seek and finds me to fill the tank...


random thought.....take a moment to think...where would you be if you didnt met the people you have or have had in your life???

Guitar=Orgasm???

ok so i think its been awhile eh???

well let me just say that i have been tackling the "rockstar" theory...yes thats right i am out and about playing music now...so needless to say its been taking up some time!!

i have been having some fun and at the same time having some great moments of people watching/observing...my question is this!! why in the fuck do women cream their fuckin jeans when it comes to men who play guitars?? i mean really...the "youngster" (yes thats right i hv entered the realm of cougarhood!!) now mind you i CANNOT stand this reference @ all and quite frankly am pissed that it ever came about because i have always felt that if within 10 years apart either way its not that big of a deal..really some people (like myself) have a younger type of mentality, just like others have an old soul......but thats awhole other subject!!

now back to the guitar!! it really is crazy!! i mean i play guitar...im a chick...and NO dudes are oooin and awin over me...no dudes are buying me drinks or throwing themselves @ me (quite frankly im just fine with that) but really ladies i mean come on some of you just give the rest of us such a bad name...i mean just because hes holding that guitar the way he does and can sing....does this mean he is supposedly some kind of GOD in the sack?? does this mean that no matter what kind of whore he is....you will drop your drawers right then and there so you can say....what?? i F'd a musician? ok then...good for you!! its a whole new world for me i mean
i love music i love musicians..but i wouldnt buy drinks or throw myself at them!!

the difference between men and woman and how they act (intoxicated as well) is so amazing!!
and then after the fact....why is ok for men to whore themselves out...get as many women as they can spread fuckin venereal diseases and their seed then proceed to get high fives from the peeps!!! and if women do this....(well we dont spread seed) we are considered pond scum whore sluts!!!! this is a double standard!!! why arent men held to these respectful standards as ourselves???

just throwing it out there...because i know its tough on you ol boys when those double standard whore slut bitches are throwing themselves @ ya!!! its tough ot say no!! LOL!!!! is there such a thing as a bad boy gentleman???


side note>>>the number of fatherless children is 10xs greater than that of motherless children...get control of yourselves!!!

WTF!?!

what the hell its been forever!!!!!!!!

well im busy tappin into a bunch of different things!!!! always searching i am...or am i trying to make myself wiser...hmmmm

i will be back by soon!!!!!!

random thoughts while waiting in sandpoint for lappin accross america......i think i should have been a psychologist!!!!!!!

One wonderful day in Sandpoint as i waited for my dear friend Camillia who...(is always late)....i sat, looking around, at couples, people by themselves and some very good looking "candy"(men)...it struck something in me which made me want to write about a recent change in a relationship that i was participating in and or sharing myself in...so thanks to a bloody Mary a pen and the back pages of my 2 year calender i came up with these random thoughts...

Aug 6th, 2009

So how is it any different when you encounter another human being that makes you feel alive that you cant get enough of and there are feelings there...but your not 100% sure and then...walks in another human being who you have that same spark with...you then find yourself in the same position as you were before...but then what? you drop this one for the next? and move forward forever effecting someone else!? how is this fair? or is this a question of being fair? should we listen deep within our souls realizing its a ride this lifeof ours...some come, some go, some stay forever...are we creatures that are supposed to be with the same person through out our whole lives? or are we suppose to give ourselves, our souls, to many and leave them with impressions and or experiences that would have never been otherwise...this is what i think. I believe...i would rather live/experience someone even if it ends up hurting in the end rather than not having experienced anything/anyone at all.

i believe that i/we may be here to give my/our love to as many people as i can (however they interpret this) and i cannot do this if tied to one person/soul. Now i am not saying this connection/ love is always on an "intimate" level with everyone...because you share yourself with other men and women all day long...i believe there will only be a few in my lifetime that i can truly say i have such a deep connection with that the intensity of intimacy (whether it be friendships or lovers) is accepted. I feel that i dont want to put myself in a position where i love to spend time with an energy that has presented itself, but feel i cannot because i have made a commitment of sorts to another....is this fair? some may say its conceited...

i dont know what it is except for true honesty of myself...which is hard to find with another person...i dont know there is "one" person in this world that can share themselves with me as i would them...also knowing there may be a possibility of some other that disrupts the "pattern"

and then camillia showed up for what would becomeone of the best nights of my life...i think!! lappin accross america...i was in rare form that night...sharing myself with the world!!! he he he to have a male "friend" who can participate in life with me this way...without freakinig out, or changing or getting wierd about me or some chick...fantastic!!! or ME being able to handle the same...pefect...i just dont know if that is possible...maybe someday!!

now thats some deep shit!!!!! i missed my calling!! LMAO!!

side note> why do women go through "menopause" which is all physical B.S and men have 24 year old mistresses and a sports cars?? ;-)~

TnA.....or DnB (dick n balls)

ok so i have to say...that it has been brought to my attention by my lovely cousin mz susana that i ooze sex!!!!!! really i mean really?!?!? only because almost every conversation i have can and will turn to a sexual kinda thing...I CANT HELP IT it just happens i am a sexual being!! ( its a pide piper kinda thing ((as my cuz puts it))...Ill say it now....."well i neva!!" i think it has to do with the fact that i am very comfortable in my own skin and very comfortable with SEX!!!! it is what it is!! i come from a long line of people who are this way....well....this is according to my mother...

we were talking one day about sex (well because as you all know this is what women do) and if they tell you they don't...they are lying...or they are hanging out with some pretty fucking boring people!!!! any hew...im not sure what we were talking about exactly... i think it was about the frequency and how i was having a hard time trying to find someone who could keep up!!! and so my mother say s to me..."oh honey....its how we were made i mean MY side of the family" like its some kind of honor to have a high sex drive and that only the few and privileged experience this!!! now i know there are many of you out there who are saying to yourself....my god i cant believe that you are talking this way with your mother!!! well you have to know her!!!! she is quite the woman who has no fear of telling yo exactly what on the mind...especially when it comes to sex!!! (weird i wonder where i got this?)

which brings me to my point that i originally was trying to make!!! sat evening a.....wait i need to back it up to an evening that was spent in Leavenworth...there were 8 of us cousins ranging from ages 24 up to well i think 52 (sorry if i got that wrong ladies) well anyways like all women im sorry most women we start....wait...back up i was obsessed with the perfectness of my cousins tatas well because she is 47..may be off a couple years...and they are fucking perfect NO boob job like the rest of our nation!!! just unbelievable!!! so this starts a sort of vagina monologue kinda think about boobs!!!!!! so we all start to precede to share flashes of each others boobs (because we are family and thats what family does.....right? LMAO) well let me just tell yo they come in all shapes and sizes and most of you men...know this!!! good god the way they gravitate with age and breastfeeding towards the ground!!!!! amazing!!! we all were laughing our asses off tears were flowing jokes and slams galore!!!! quite frankly it was fantastic!!! my stomach hurt the next day from the laughter!!

now this came up again this last weekend @ a birthday party...and the twist was this..........do guys do this??? can you imagine!!! (as said in low deep macho voice while in the john) "hey Larry your dick at your age is brilliant!!! let me tell ya!!!!! wow!!"" well thanks Jim!! how about you??? whats yours like lets check it out!!" and then proceeds to yells out "Tim, frank , John and SAM!!!!!!! come in the bathroom!!!!! lets compare dicks and balls!!!!! so they all run in and start laughing and comparing (after a few beers of course) LOL and then Larry says to Tim hey your wife has to stop sucking on your nut sack those thing s are touching the floor!!!!! NO this does not happen thank god!!!!! but why is it that women are so much more comfortable then men when it comes to this?!?! why are we so much more free to express ourselves in front of each other...i mean men are the more sexual being right so they shouldn't care???

its because....well...quite frankly....a dick is ugly!!! it really is!! and those of you women who have beautiful natural tatas....embrace them...well because gravity effects their dicks just as much....and there aint no silicone that can fix that!!! oh ya....and at least one day...we know....that our tatas wont be hittin the toilet water!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel the love!!!!

side note> during his life time a man will ejaculate 371/2 sperm on average...

revelations......growth

so here i am again..its been some time since the wedding talk!! i was on such a high after all of that love....oh and alcohol!! so my thought this time is about revelations...

i recently was involved in a conversation with a gentleman that i just met...we will call him reverend..(tis a joke) he knows of what i speak...because those of you who know me....well we all know there is NO way that i would be involved in a conversation with a reverend...now wait i mean that with the ut most respect!!! i would talk with him...for all people are good people...i just wouldn't get into a conversation about religion with him....because those of you who know me...know that i would make the poor bastard go to his knees asking for forgiveness for me for him for even talking this way to another from the lord above!!!! he would be crying...i think i may have touched a bit to much on religion/and or opinion there of...apologies...WAIT!!!! this is a blog what the fuck am i apologizing for????? im still a good person and can honestly say that i can associate with all walks of life..because essentially they all took a path to get there!! which makes them great!! my opinion should technically NOT make you dislike me...maybe just disagree!!!

wow k..so i had this thought after our conversation...about how as you age you come to these certain Revelations and sometimes those take place when your involved with or talking with someone else..which sometimes is not in the favor of the other unfortunately...but then to turn things around to work towards your favor is the key!!

a counselor once informed that most women who go through divorce especially those who have young children..usually take 5 years before they start to think about themselves instead of there children...so those of you.. (unless you are a whore and have an affair and decided to fall in love with someone else and screw up someone elses life) who have gotten married, are completely screwed!!!!!! sorry...really because once again (according to the counselor) you wake up one Sunday morning jump out of bed look over to his person in your bed...and yell "WTF have i done!!!!!!" as he jumps out of bed, and looks at you in horror with his shriveled up ****...(well you get the idea) and yells, "WTF are you talking about!! im sorry!!!" you NOW feel...WTF have a done....so then starts the twisted game of how to get out and be yourself again...this revelation is yours not his....he should not own this...should try and recognized that you were different when you first met because of what another ass had done!!!!

so there are many variations to these revelations that none of us should own unless WE were the one who woke up one Sunday morn...yelling WTF have i done!!!!!!! to those of you who feel responsible...let it go!!! let it go!!!! peace

side note> there are 6 1/2 billion people in this world (roughly) its crazy how out of all those people you meet who you meet...but then at the same time have a connection...how lucky!!!

k...soooo if you are a part of the facebook dealio you are aware that i attended a wedding this weekend..that i must say..was a true witness of love...really it was very encouraging and inspirational to be a part of such passion!! it was definitely an old fashioned type of day!!
the fact that it was pouring down (and i mean pouring) down rain..and the smiles and tears were still all around was amazing to me....ask yourself how many weddings have you been to that you walk away from saying....YES!!!!!!!!!! those two are going to make it!! this was one!!

The production that goes into these weddings amazes me...its crazy!!! you can plan plan plan and you just never know how these things will turn out!! THE alcohol the flows at these things..amazing to me people are just different at weddings...is it because everyone is dressed up feeling good wanting to have a fun time...because there hasn't been all that many times (absolutely unless on a beach on vacation OR on a boat) that i have started drinking heavily @ 1 pm!!! LOL!! yes yes yes those of you who know me......bite your tongues!!! ;-) anyways its interesting to watch people...i mean its basically an organized ritual, really, that over time due to the fact that our society has gotten so far fetched with the obsession of perfection that we all know the routine to!!! like organised religion!!!

i mean there is a strangeness to the whole thing that we (meaning the wedding couple and their poor parents) are responsible to feed you a full course meal (while yo listen to a live band playing soft music in the background) and on top of it..top shelf alcohol beer and wine!!!! who decided this was what everyone wanted?? i mean dont get me wrong!!!! i am so grateful for these experiences i have had at these weddings!! trust me!! (including my own..HA) but, it just seems so....well superficial anymore...this last wedding brought my mind to a place of simplicity...with the rain and ambiance of everything...keeping it simple...a love that found each other that wants to shout it to you to the sky...i dont need to be fed to experience this...i dont need to dance...i dont need to drink (i like to!!) to see this....we dont have to spend $$ to let everyone know!!

an intimate moment between two people that deep down truly love each other..you can see it.. you can feel it...and you are proud to be a witness to it....this is all any of us should NEED at a wedding...........

thank you David and Juliette..congratulations! i look forward to your life!!!!

side note> who named a shot of whiskey on the rocks a "cocktail?"

the mind of ORBO???

i went to coffee this am with a wonderful inspirational friend....we will call her silly C!! and we got to talking...wait wtf am i thinking...shes my therapist.....so i got to talking about life and love and all that other bs that i always seem to manage screwing up...and as this conversation took place...it went to other random places well like my blog name....ORBO...and i thought i should explain as to how i got there!!

now this may not be as hilarious as it was this morn.. but here goes!!

well it stands for O'Neill Roberts Brown Oneill!!! hence the ORBO!! those of you who are familiar with my colorful life know that these are my "last names!" well the last names that i have acquired...

I was born 1970 as an O'Neill...it was good times i enjoyed this last name for quite sometime...then i met a man...ah..wait a minute that would b a boy...(because essentially that's what most men are!!!!!) when i was 19 that well showed me the way to the greatest thing that i had ever experienced...yes...you know what im talking about...the wonderful Orgasm!!!!! well once that happened..i was in it was like a drug...i reference it to candy...like a pezz dispenser!!! ya just pop the lid and your in heaven!!! after the introduction to this..he could do whatever he wanted!! (which wasnt very nice) and considering the fact that i was immature,young, and naive as well...and had no idea who i was...well the rest is history and 2 wonderful kids later the marriage ended when i caught him in bed with another anxiously awaiting lassy with her mouth wide open waiting for the pezz!!!!! LMAO!! wow to much information??

which then brings me to my next letter...B this came about when i met a wonderful man!! cant say a bad thing about him...if i did it would be he was essentially a boy as well...(like i said they all are!!) it was my dysfunction this time...well after the counseling,healing, growth and time, i realized..well im fucked up and this man is to nice t be involved...i was afraid of what i may do!! he taught me a lot he was a tremendous influence on these wonderful boys i have and still is to this day!! definitely plays the role of dad much better then a lot of dads out there!! so i thank you!!! we are friends now and get along...well after he laid into me here and there for a bit!! LOL!

which brings me full circle back around to the big O!!!!!!!!!! wait talking about an orgasm i will save for another blog!!! i mean back to my last name....yet again....O"Neill i like the ring to that!! he he he i shall stay here indefinitely i have come to understand my self who i am what i represent what i choose to own and or let go of in my life choices....it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me...im not here to impress anyone on this earth...i am here to be the best possible person i can be the best friend i can be the best mom i can be and all that other stuff!! will i screw up some more..ya...will i inspire people? sure will i be inspired by others always am...

so there you have it!! from the mind of ORBO!!! NOW i definitely cant get married again...because it would just screw everything up!!!

side note> why is being naked so strange and or scary to some people?

parenting...should you have a license??

all i have to say is this...ABSOLUTELY!! but then that would raise a whole other set of rules and regulations for someone to have to micro manage...now wouldn't it.

all i know is that day in and day out i see people that have children...well quite frankly that just shouldn't!! now im not saying that im the greatest parent by any means..however my children have turned out fairly well..not 1/2 bad really, and let me tell you the dysfunction they come from..there father marriage # 3 and not happy!! and i could go on for hours about the abuse that is handed out there on a daily basis to all of us...love = money i guess thats good for the kids!! they have really nice things so they look good for pops!! :)

there mother well divorced twice and well i dont have a lot of money, but i do have a lot of love!! im just hangin out raising kids trying to do my best to keep my "private" life away from the chitlins..you know kinda like a Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde in the female sense...when the cats away the mice will play so to speak..i have difficulties with understanding myself and relationships with men...no denying it. but have managed to raise the kids to understand that its NOT theirs to own!! our lives are our own to command to control!! we will see if its a job well done in the long run i guess...

back to the license...sooo im at jr high orientation with my son today and well he gets his schedule and i say..."well...go to find your locker open it up find your classes do your thing!! ill b here for moral support"...so off we go as im looking around i see parent after parent with their child's schedule in their hand finding the locker..for their child, finding the classrooms for their child...and im thinking to myself WTF!!! wait a minute here!! ah...whos going to school in a couple of days?? OH SHIT!! (hit myself in the head) ya MOM an DAD are!!! wtf am i thinking this makes total sense that the parents are enabling the kids well to be helpless and not accountable for screwing up!!! god forbid they get lost or have to ask for directions or...wait....even help.....OH NO!!!

im tired of kids NOT having the responsibility and or experience of screwing up!! i mean isnt that what gives us our character in a way? anymore these kids cant speak for themselves cant think for themselves cant SCREW up for themselves!! why? well because mommy and daddy have conditioned you so much on how to "look" for them...shit they have taken over your brain!! i mean we dont want our kids to look like idiots!! not the fool..we cant have their feelings hurt!! OH NO!! i mean dont these things have to happen in order for us NOT to learn to do it again...in order to create a bit of character for others to enjoy??

i have worked i pediatrics for years...and another dysfunction...the NEED to feel NEEDED!! good god some of these parents never had a lick of attention/affection as a child growing up...so what do they do? look to their children...they want them to hurt, feel bad, have a hard time or be scared because then it fills the need to be wanted!! and creates a whole world of freaky dysfunction that well NO medication can even come close to fixing...oooo another topic for a different day DRUGS!!!

all im saying is that if we really evaluated potential parents and all they had to do was sign some paper work...of what it really takes/means to be a "healthy" parent...things may be a bit different i guess it would have to be someone rather sain that defines this...because well if they were dysfunctional...well screw it!!! we are all dysfunctional...its all about guidance...you either gotstit or you dont!!!!! and there is a whole hell of a lot of people out there that dont....and im scared!!

side note> i wonder how they came up with the name elmo?

fear=shitty decison making!!

im not sure what i want to talk about tonight....fear is what im thinking...its a horrid bit of thing really...dictionary meaning...

Fear- An unpleasant feeling of anxiety or apprehension caused by the presence and or anticipation of danger.....

so why do some of us fear relationships?? commitments? i mean was it really all that scary that we just cant bare the thought of doing it again? i believe yes until you meet someone that sees through that fear...with you...is that possible...i believe so...i have experienced it for the first time....in along time... but boy it sure makes for some shitty decision making sometimes...a somewhat of a loss of life in a way really...

for instance some people due to fear...could never get up in front of people and sing...even though they know deep within..they probably could. i have been through this...i know i can sing and honestly..it doesn't cause a fearful feeling for me to sing in front of people....what causes fear for me...is the peoples reaction to my music...my singing...so for years i didn't believe..shitty decision due to fear...i feel my life would have been very different...oh i have dabbled in it before..but because of fear i chose different things...i know now, due to what im sure is growing up some and changing...i have embraced the fear...and not allowing it to take a hold...Dean is someone who has helped me see through the fear to the other side.....thank you...

i think with very obvious things like facing a fear.."singing" is so much more different then a fear of commitment true honest raw heart commitment with another human being...but why?? its all the same right? i mean we dont have control over any of the outcomes that come from fear right? so why is it so different with someone instead of something? i know deep down i love someone...sure there are things that may bother me...but deep down i know...so why not throw caution to the wind...say fuck it....because eventually all good/great things come to an end...

we protect ourselves from pain/fear...but in the long run it turns out that we have missed out on so much in life by inevitably sheltering our cores from that in which will make us better, stronger, happier......


side note> where would we all be if there were no drugs?? and i mean pharmaceutical as well....

Where is all the honesty anymore??

Is there...wait I'm going to spell check tonight...but im just going to f'n write so i dont care how this looks!! im not an English major who gives a fuck!! thats honesty!!!

why the fuck cant people just be honest!! we have created a world in which everyone is so nervous to "hurt" someone Else's feelings that we inevitably lie to protect!!! why do we do this??
because in all actuality we create other issues that dont even need to be around!!!

i mean if you dont want to be with someone just tell them!!! if you like someone else!! thats how it fucking goes!! move on!!! so someone else came along thats better!! move on!! out of your control my Friend!!! if someone asks you to do something.....tell them NO dont fuckin ignore them dont tell a lie...just tell em you dont want to do anything...or...well i have this relationship with some else that...well i lied about before...well and should have told the truth but i didnt so now im fucked and i want to spend more time with them instead of you!!! just fuckin say it!!! WTF??? get some fucking nuts!!!

i mean we are all adults here are we not??? we can take care of ourselves right!!! if you hurt someones feelings...............guess what!! they'll get over it!! psychology tells us so!! its in the genetic make up!!! really eventually its better!!! NO ONE IS HONEST anymore....well because society tells us we dont have to be!!! fuckin Pansy asses we are!!!

Like at work...your not doing your job.....fuckin do it already!!! everyone needs to sneak around and talk behind this individuals ass and talk trash everyone hates them they are a lazy piece of shit and on top of it they dont know what the F they are doing!!!...but...we all just sit and around and talk like we are best buddies...wtf is that? get your ass out!! your not helping us here!!! but no discrimination and lawyers!! love em great combo we got going on to rule the world!!!

i would love to meet someone who is connected to themselves and honest about who they are and what they stand for!!! boy would i get along real well!!!!

im pissed tonight!!!

side note> are we just a big project for someone making fun of us???

commercals....really i mean really?

Good God!!

is anyone else completely annoyed by commercials? i really
don't watch that much t.v. however was ill and ah..during
the day...how many feminine hygiene commercials do we
really need??

ladies do we need to know how a tampon really works?
how it "absorbs?" do we really need to be sitting in the living
room with our preteen sons as a lady comes on and talks
about her lack of moisture?? are you kidding? i believe this
argument comes down to freedom of speech? or does it?

im thinking about some of the first words of the constitution...
..to insure domestic tranquility...hmmm...ya that's working!!
i think we need to revise like all great "contracts" are revised!!
but then again that's a whole other political topic that well i
could go on for hours about!!

back to the shit on t.v!! as i type this..i remind myself of oh ya
iv touched on this already...bikini girl!! have we all become so
stupid unable to think for ourselves that it takes ten different
commercials to tell us what we need??

i think i am intelligent enough to know what it is that i do or do
not need what does or doesn't work for me..and if i don't..wow
i might have to use my brain and research it!!!!!! slaves to the
media we are...and they know it!! its a disease!!

are there really people who sit in their living rooms and say
baby come look at this!!! i think im going to try this tampon!!
i think it will "fit" better (they really say this in the commercial)
i wont leak!! LMAO!!! the only time i have ever talked about a
commercial with anyone...is if it involved humor...if i got a
laugh out of it...and when we were done talking about it...no one
rushed out and made a fuckin purchase!!!!

side note>i wonder how much the company's pay for the
mention of side effects??

emotions...who needs em?? :) :(

well well well

a subject that quite frankly i hate to have control my life but yet
controls my life @ times....why is it that we are so good at giving
each other counsel...but when it comes to taking our own advice
we just cant see it?

im sure, as i have said in the past, there is a word out there for
this very thing i just cant think of it!!! turns out that my little heart
has been broken...yes its true!! developed quite a fondness of a
particular someone in which the friendship/connection was very
special..but unfortunately i am a woman... and well im not all that
ugly...i think im fairly intelligent..have been told am exciting i have
sorta (is that a word?) a good sense of humor get along with the
fellas...well quite well...so it would appear that i am threat to other
women and their men!!!! wtf is this all about anyways!!!
im fuckin tired of it!!

i mean if i was (and by no means do i mean disrespect to anyone who
feels they are mentioned in these words i am about to say..) anyways.....
if i was in fact ugly...somewhat stupid?dull...boring...wasn't witty and
didnt get along better with men than i do women...well it would all be
very fuckin different wouldnt it...wouldnt b a problem would it!?! its FN
dicrimination!!

oh go ahead and say...poor me my life sucks give us a break are
you kidding! i guess its like anything...dont judge til your there...i find
myself in constant turmoil...well because 9 times out of 10 i go into
a room and would rather talk with the boys than i would with the girls...
well because of the above mentioned things...all they want is never mind...
and usually they are married...once in a blue moon one comes along that
isnt...and if things are set in the begining...i can obide by the rules when
another chick is involved...but it always turns out well....otherwise and
shit has be brought to an abrupt end!!!

i sometimes wonder if life would be easier if i just told everyone
i was gay and then it wouldn't be an issue...but fuck that!!! i should
be allowed to be who i am without the fuckin bitch drama!!!!!! this
will never change though...this IS a discrimination.. and there are those
of you out there that know what i talk of...because we have talked about
it in private as if we were committing a fuckin crime!!! i think im going to
hire a lawyer like all good Americans do and sue the fuck out of the next
bitch who gets in the way of a friendship i want because she fuckin hates
her life and i love mine!!!!

SIDE NOTE....why shouldn't we think souly with our mind?

A burger..or blow job?

tonight i was playing golf with the ladies...yes that's right fellas i golf and

damn good quite frankly...and a conversation came up afterward at the
watering hole about the carls jr commercial...ya you boys know it!!

The one with the chick in the bikini that states she has to eat a lot of "fruit"
to look good in that bikini...take a big ass bite of the burger
(she will throw up later) only said..well because im a bitch and im jealous...
then proceeds to take the piece of pineapple off the burger slowly
sticking her tongue out and lick the "juice" off of it...and after that
sticks the pineapple in her mouth and take a bite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOW...really...really does this make you want to go to carls jr and get
a teryiaki(sp) burger...or does this make you want to go annoy your
wife/girlfriend for some dirty little head job because the carls jr girl just
wrapped her tongue around that piece of pineapple like it was the tip of your dick??

Now i am speaking on behalf of all married and or taken women out there
(of which i am not)...please just tell them to go get a burger!!! don't involve
sex please....

well then we just have 2 things to do then...go buy the damn burgers
and then later that night...give them fuckin dessert too!! LMAO!!

FUCK!!

so...im writing bigger now..

i want to know who decided one day that "words" certain words...would be deemed offensive??
who decided that the word fuck was offensive..or the word shit, or the word slut, or the word fricken (ooo), motherfucker, bastard, asshole, pussy, cunt, bullshit..ect..ect..

i mean they are after all just words right? who put such a horrid experience/meaning behind them? i would like to meet these people who created such terrible awful things for us humans to have to endure!!

who slapped who the day Mr. Gone With the Wind said why miss Karrie go fuck yourself...well wait that is offensive..(well not to me..because i would say ok!!) which brings me to my point don't you yourself make it offensive? don't YOU put pressure on others to see things your way?? don't we all?? so if i am at the store and drop a fuckin tomato on the ground and yell out "FUCK!" how is that offensive to others?? i mean don't YOU choose to get irritated over this? it doesn't bother me... i know its a word...but the fuckin looks you would get..like you just committed a crime or something..

now i know that as a human race we have to have standards as to which we all live by..but they are words i tell ya just words!!! we should hold each other accountable for choices that are made...because if we didn't well it could potentially be a free for all quite frankly...(some may enjoy)

like instead of someone yelling "fuck" after the dropped tomatoes...there would possibly be some couple fucking on the bed of tomatoes right there in the grocery store!!!! this why i suppose we have standards...but isn't dictating offensive words almost micromanaging peoples vocab? give it up already

why cant my kid yell shit in school when he drops his pencil? why do i have to give the speech @ home "now kids we can say these words or have these conversations @ home but...by GOD do not say this fuckin shit @ school because ill get a fuckin phone call from the mother fuckin school OK!! i mean really?

standards or micro managing??

SIDE NOTE>> who decides one day...i want to be a proctologist??

inspiration...from intimacy

i will just say now for the record....i cant fuckin spell so i am sorry!!

i recently wrote on my Fb page that i wondered about falling i love..
is it real..im sure we have all asked ourselves this question...

i wrote that i thought it may be an attraction to another with the frame of mind that
you become intrigued by the characteristics/ideals, whatever they may be, that the other has and want to posses them for yourself...and once you have obtained and or stolen those characteristic/ideals you eventually become bored of them...and leave looking for knew treasure to put in your pocket. Hense all the infidelity in the world i suppose...

i think i have obtained a lot of "who" i am from those i have been intimate (not just sexual) (get your grotesque minds out of the gutter!!!!) wait...mine IS there most of the time!! anyways i believe what i have done is well basically stolen a little piece from each man that i have encountered in my life!!

like right now i recently spent a lot of time with a certain Welzy...i stole this whole blog thing from him..highly intelligent individual (doesnt believe it) but he had one..he pissed me off i took the blog thing...now i could have done this on my own...but i probably would hv never thought of it until we had a conversation and i checked his out...i have olso been inspired to write because of him....now wether or not im good ill never know...but inspired..

inspired to educate myself to make myself a better person...to push myself to do things i woulnt normally have done...this is love...to turn around and give it back....thats harder...

thanks to you all who have a piece missing...

SIDE NOTE: How the fuck does Southpark get away with their shit!!!!!!!!!!!!