im not sure what i want to talk about tonight....fear is what im thinking...its a horrid bit of thing really...dictionary meaning...
Fear- An unpleasant feeling of anxiety or apprehension caused by the presence and or anticipation of danger.....
so why do some of us fear relationships?? commitments? i mean was it really all that scary that we just cant bare the thought of doing it again? i believe yes until you meet someone that sees through that fear...with you...is that possible...i believe so...i have experienced it for the first time....in along time... but boy it sure makes for some shitty decision making sometimes...a somewhat of a loss of life in a way really...
for instance some people due to fear...could never get up in front of people and sing...even though they know deep within..they probably could. i have been through this...i know i can sing and honestly..it doesn't cause a fearful feeling for me to sing in front of people....what causes fear for me...is the peoples reaction to my music...my singing...so for years i didn't believe..shitty decision due to fear...i feel my life would have been very different...oh i have dabbled in it before..but because of fear i chose different things...i know now, due to what im sure is growing up some and changing...i have embraced the fear...and not allowing it to take a hold...Dean is someone who has helped me see through the fear to the other side.....thank you...
i think with very obvious things like facing a fear.."singing" is so much more different then a fear of commitment true honest raw heart commitment with another human being...but why?? its all the same right? i mean we dont have control over any of the outcomes that come from fear right? so why is it so different with someone instead of something? i know deep down i love someone...sure there are things that may bother me...but deep down i know...so why not throw caution to the wind...say fuck it....because eventually all good/great things come to an end...
we protect ourselves from pain/fear...but in the long run it turns out that we have missed out on so much in life by inevitably sheltering our cores from that in which will make us better, stronger, happier......
side note> where would we all be if there were no drugs?? and i mean pharmaceutical as well....
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