A Deep Breath

So...im back on the year anniversary date...

To sum up this last year.....i want you to look at this first writing well...as one as one of those fake plastic, robotic family letters (no offense if you send them) that we all get during these joyous holiday times telling you how perfect my life is and how wonderful my husband, kids, and animals are during the last 365 days...which then will put you in a twisted dreamlike state that makes you go grab the bottle of whiskey from the cupboard, take a swig, and while sitting, quietly, you look at the Christmas tree lights in the dark, questioning yourself, wondering...."Where the fuck did i go wrong with MY family??" how and why are these people i hardly know or ever see sooo perfect?!?"

here goes....

Problem number one....i dont have a husband and im sure if i did...he would be annoying the shit out of me...and i could find more things wrong with him after all these years than i could right..sex would be well once a month maybe?? i would be tired and we would have bills and stress and i would be looking at all the other husbands wondering...if their 'grass' would be greener?....YA..i think life with my vibrator is just fine!!!

My new love is music....via through my Martin...we get along GREAT...if im pissed he listens....if i am sad he listens...if im happy he listens....if i dont feel like talking hes cool with that..well i pretty much get my way..all the time...sex is a little stiff...BUT....ill take it...hahahaha!! (sorry...couldn't help myself) a journey it has put me through...a path that somehow always seems to lead and find the way at the same time.... i have evolved and changed as a human being tremendously in these last 3 years...
im getting old..the body isnt the same as it used to be...i cant eat, drink, and play as i use too and well...that SUCKS! but its ok....
i have bills to pay, a house to keep up which is a pain in my ass..but its ok...everyday i try and say weeeeeeeeee...well..because...WE are lucky...life could be worse..no?

Kids? oh well they are great...they piss me off, make me pull my hair out, i dont yell as much as i uses to though...thats nice...
There was a lot of upset and yelling before the elder left for college this year because he didnt agree with my love affair..and felt it was taking time away from him...(this tends to happen when you are in love)...BUT the children soon learned that he makes me very happy...absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that shit....and alls well that ends well...sooo basically we are dysfunctional at times JUST LIKE THE REST OF YOU!!!
but you know what....its ok....and we learn everyday...that you can think to much, everyone's different, we all have different demons we fight, so try and be patient before you freak out, communication is key, LOVE does make the world go round, and the Beatles rule!!
I LOVE my children...i dont care what they do (well I do..as their parent i cant help it) as long as they are good to others...and they are happy....SOOOOO with that being said...who knows WTF they will do.....and if you dont like us because they are not Dentist, Doctors, or not making 6 figures....then you probably shouldn't be in our lives anyway..and i just wasted a stamp.....

As far as the kitty's Lucinda and Mildred go......they eat, they fight, they shit in their litter box...and well....give us LOVE while playing Ping Pong.....

Maybe after this 365 day statement....you will have a smile on your face...maybe not....and if you still go to the liquor cabinet...i suggest a good counselor and AAA